Dearest Reader –
How are you today? – Do you ever considered the question - ‘Have I got peace in my heart?’
Most of our lives we tend to ‘just get on with it’ unless something has stopped the flow. We may have faced either a inner stumbling block of failed trust in ourselves or others, or lack of faith in our own ability, or an external brick wall that prevents us ‘getting on’ when we are stopped from doing something. Although we may complain, these blocks usually lead us to new and more perfect things because we need to find resources beyond what we consciously ‘know’ in our heads. We find new dimensions of thinking and decision making which lead us forward in life.... if we are blessed to do so.
However some of us were born carrying ‘stumbling blocks’ (genetic pain or sickness), or had early experience of lovelessness. These make facing the unknown or the stumbling blocks of life difficult to navigate because we lack flexibility and inner love in order to grow. And yet deep within us beyond the physical or psychological levels of being, despite our apparent disabilities and intransigence, we do find resilience to overcome and go new ways despite the unknown. 'Something' enables us when we acknowledge the problem.
If we keep seeking to grow and are willing to be led by the Unknown, we ultimately find the Presence and Love of God within and without us and perhaps faith in the Trinitarian God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit - everywhere present.
We find too, as we are led on this journey of service and obedience to the Loving Way, we are far more than body, emotions, and will.
We begin to grasp the fact that our ‘soul’ our inner being, is not perfect, and we discover our divisions - maybe caused generations ago, or early in our lives. We recognise it/they need redeeming work to align us with the Loving and Living God Who created us to live in His Image, serve His purposes, that only we can serve, and become His Likeness through His Love.
Dear Reader are you protesting at this? That's OK. In my head, I didn’t know or believe that either, when 30 years ago God called me back to His Heart and Church when I was crying on my bed. I was facing the loss of hope and love when the man I was living with did not want to marry me.
I did not know at that point that God was with me, and for me, as a human being.
The broken-heart within me hid bitterness, anger, self-righteousness, lovelessness , shame and carelessness – all emerging as aspects of behaviour. And I felt no human desire for good, or understanding of my Oneness with everyone… through the God in whose Name I had been baptized as a child and in my teaching work made visible!!
Let me fast forward a little to the point that I believed and trusted in Jesus Christ’s Love and work within me, enabling me to serve and love and continually turn to God in prayer, knowing my need for Him and His Spirit. Yet I still knew deep places of pain and loss of life hidden in my body, intermittently coming to the surface. This is why trauma pain is so long-lasting as it hides in the body.
I was left holding pieces of ‘Unknown’..... Bits of my Life, which only God understood and ‘knew’ were still hidden in my body, affecting my soul. At times the pain could be intense – aligned with Jesus on the Cross – yet when I sat with open-heart in Love for God – and His love for the suffering part of myself – I lost all bitterness or self-righteousness or striving. I saw it only as opportunity to pray for all abused women, children, and men – and in that prayer, all pain left me and only LOVE was left.
My soul was being set free to greater Love and Service in obedience to the Love and purposes of God the Father through the Incarnation of Jesus Christ.….Indeed nothing can separate us from the love of God - unless we continue to turn our back. I learned the power of 'Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief'. Would you like this?
If you want to know more of this - come and ask for details of the 4 Month LIFTER Journey, to help you find integrity in Love and Purpose in your soul and Life. Send me an email to 'marinax7@btinternet.com' -
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God is Love and integrity; Love and mercy; Love and Service to all who seek, knock and ask. He wants to set you FREE from anger and bitterness and self-pity - to find true love for yourself and others, in Him.
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